On the Road to Beautiful

Have you heard that song, 'on the road to beautiful'? It's a good song.
Yes I remember talking about those words... You lived to die, rejected and ALONE...
what a God we serve, Mel. WHAT a God.

You picked many of my favorite quotes from the chapter to post...
This is a very, very good book. Maybe I should be reading pieces over every day instead of in chunks all at once. The gospel of grace and hope is something I need daily in my life right now--and always.
Praying the Scriptures and God's promises is something I need to do more. To use that gift He's given us, this incredible gift of the written Word. Incredible.

I loved loved loved reading about your time at the Messianic congregation, and the different ways God is bringing you into contact with the Jewish people and fueling your passion to serve them, love them, pray for them. What an amazing thing to pray for Israel with that congregation, Mel. I am so thankful to God for giving you these experiences!!! And excited about the Ebenezer application. Do they have a website? I'll look. I'd like to read more about their theology, goals, etc...
About work at Capernwray. I guess I'm just waiting to hear what openings they have, and waiting to see if God opens the doors for me to go. I am literally broke right now but I truly believe anything He wills is possible. I miss you very, very much, and I can't tell you how sweet it is to me to actually have someone--you-- out there missing me of all people. That's a highly undeserved gift of love to me that makes a big difference right now.

The summer is so open in my mind right now, still, and I don't want to even start thinking that "I'm not praying about it right" so I'm not going to go there. I just want to be where God wants me. And I want so much for you to be where He wants you. It would be lovely lovely lovely if that were together.
Whatever this summer holds, today especially I am longing for and looking forward to breaking out of this pattern, away from the notebooks and the CDRoms and the way some of this classwork shapes my emotions and drains all my energy and enthusiasm. God has plans for us and I refuse to let any of this diminish my belief in the excitingness of that. We have our little parts in the grand story of God, the grand story of All Time. And no part is truly little because they're all intertwined and all essential...otherwise we wouldn't have been made.

I am definitely a ragamuffin right now. I always have been but there's not even an iota of use in pretending otherwise right now. I'm learning, in fits and starts, that this means God's grace is even BIGGER than I thought, not just that I am even more undeserving than I thought. "Grace increases all the more..."

I love you, I am praying for you right...this...minute.